Confused

something kept going aroud my head,
i always wanted to know what is it....
questions i always ask myself ever seens i lose people that i care and love a lot....
i wanna know what's the main reason i kept losing people i love....
IS IT BECAUSE OF ME????
why everytime i love and care for someone more and more,
that person will surely go away????
IS IT BECAUSE OF ME????
why everytime i will always end up arguing with people i love???
IS IT BECAUSE OF ME????
why people i love will end up sad and hurt????
IS IT BECAUSE OF ME????
why does people i love will always end up leaving me????
IS IT BECAUSE OF ME????
these are questions i kept asking myself everytime i thought of it....
i always wanna know the answer to my questions,
but i can't seem to find it....
IS IT BECAUSE I'M A FAILURE????
OR THIS IS WHAT GOD WANTS ME TO GO TROUGH????
OR IS IT BECAUSE MY LIFE IS MEANT TO BE LIKE THAT????
i don't know myself....
all i know is....
I'M CONFUSED!!!!!!T.T