A Friend

i've got a bestfriend before and now which i care a lot,
but no one knows cause i always act like don't care like that in front of my friends....
last time, i always call her 'wu gui' cause i think she really walks very slow....
you should see how close she can only walk in an hour ar....
hahahaha......xD
whenever we see each other, we'll hit each other as a sign of 'hello'....
i love to buli her a lot but mostly is she bullying me la....
i admit....
zzzz.....
however, i enjoyed it a lot....
cause if she's happy then i'll be too....

but seens march, she stop talking to me.....
i admit i did wrong by blaming her for talking to my ex-boyfriend but i juzt can't resist it...
don't know is it because i jealous or i care....
all i know is that feeling SUCKS a lot....
but you know me la...
i get upset easily and when i do, i'll do anything without thinking....
well.....that's the bad side of me...
just because of that made us both became like STRANGERS when we see each other...
and that feeling DAMN hurts a lot....
from today i'll still keep thinking about her and the time we had together....
some times i could even cry in my heart without anyone noticing....T.T

i just don't know why everytime when i have a good relationship with someone then soon it'll come crashing down...
what actually did i do wrong which makes God punish me like that????!!!!
if i really do wrong anything, i'll admit my mistakes and change...
i'll even accept all those punishment but why must it be on my relationship with friends???
i rather die then losing another friend again.....
i'll do anyting to make wu gui talk to me again then continue living in regretion and sadness everyday....T.T

well....thats all for today le...
just hope my prayers come through some day....